Here's the biggest difference between my 2009 self and my 2019 self:

The old version worried a lot about external things—whether people liked my work, my body, my skin, my blog, who I was with, how I spoke, etc. A lot of energy was spent on things I really couldn’t control and as a result, I didn't really focus on controlling the things I could control.

I think about all of the time I lost worrying about shit that really did not matter--things that would eventually get worked out in their own way & time--and I marvel at all of the things I potentially could've gotten done if only I knew better.
And if only I'd had a little more faith. 

But this 2019 version?
It’s the total opposite.

I'm super confident in my skin & my only “worry” is being in alignment with who I say I am. Making sure that I genuinely LIKE the woman I am creating. Making it a priority to spend time with the people I want to be around & visit the places I want to see & invest in the opportunities that will bring me joy & building a business that really HELPS women take off their masks and be their full, unapologetic selves.
Using my life & my stories to do what only I can uniquely do best.

My focus is on worthiness & alignment & adventure & love & not only finding but creating spaces that will allow me to THRIVE in this life I’ve been gifted.
In a word, my focus is JOY.

And these may sound like simple tasks but truly—it’s taken me every single bit of these last 10 years to get here. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is actually the simplest thing to do, because all it requires is that you LET GO & allow life to work certain things out in its own way.

Will ever I find my life partner & get married & travel the world with him?
I believe so but who knows?
Will I ever move to Madrid?
I believe so but who knows?
Will I ever be debt free?
I believe so but who knows?
Will I ever have a child?
We'll see what God sayeth 'cause...I'm still not sure about this one!

The reality is, I only want that which has my name on it.
And if these 10 years have taught me anything, it's that I've wasted time a lot of time trying to force certain things to have my name on them that were not in fact for me. And that some of the things I thought were for me were indeed mine, but they just weren't mine to hold forever.

The last decade has taught me that the best indicator of my growth is a sense of alignment between who I am & how I show up in the world. And that if I can just continue to seek that alignemnt in everything I do....

I will end up exactly where I want to be.
(And I'm pretty sure that you will too, if you follow the same strategy.)


Happy New Year, friends. May 2019 be your best year yet! 

xo,
d.